My nemesis, Betrayal, and I have met again.
Merriam-Webster defines betrayal as:
1 : to lead astray;
2 : to deliver to an enemy by treachery
3 : to fail or desert especially in time of need
4 a : to reveal unintentionally <betray one’s true feelings> b : to disclose in violation of confidence
intransitive verb : to prove false
I cannot fully describe the resulting emotional roller-coaster. It has consumed my thoughts, my energy, my days, and my nights. It’s arrival during this season of my life was prophesied to me in January. I could see its impending arrival a little over a month ago. I tried to avoid experiencing it by seeking truth but the blind spouse of Betrayal is Trust. I chose to hold onto her.
Betrayal’s wound hurts deeply because it attacks the one thing we hold onto so strongly; trust. I know this feeling of grief will pass. And, I will be the stronger for it.
My hope is that I will not fear to trust nor trust to fear. If I do, Betrayal has won.
Wanderings & Meanderings 